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While I check my notifications on here every day, I just realized that I've been posting photos of drawings on Facebook but not here at all... So it's like I practically just forget DA exists even though I'm here. Can't say whether or not I'll even bother to do so. Can't bring myself to abandon the page entirely though. Too many memories. Also, it's a nice little portfolio of my past without having to dig through my box of drawings.

Someday soon when I might get internet back, I may start posting drawings again.

Thanks to some people over at Anime-Zap at the beginning of the year, I learned a new technique that helps me feel much better about what comes out of my drawings. So I may feel confident enough to actually post some. In the meantime, if anyone still really watches me at all, if you have any requests you can go ahead and and request from me and I may just end up drawing it. Gives good practice.

So feel free to throw out some ideas! I'm up for just about anything that doesn't include a detailed background.

Today one thing I'm thankful for, I can't share with the person it involves. This is because he thinks I am a monster for trying to be honest with him and try to help him see where he's going wrong. I've never been able to get through to him. And as much as that's hurt me in the past, I am still thankful that he was a part of my life. I wouldn't be who I am today without him. I wouldn't be so strong, and I wouldn't be able to be as lighthearted as I've become. And I wouldn't know that I deserve so much more than he ever even started to offer me. I'd like to say that I am thankful for , Eiri. Now known by the name of Chase. Previously known as Chansey and Glory. You monopolized my life for over five years, made me cry, and made me smile. You caused me the most real heartache I have ever known, and I loved you much more than I even did myself. Thanks to this, I learned that I was living the wrong way. I can live for someone without giving up my own life in the process. I wouldn't know this even at 23 without you. You may not be worth my thanks, thoughts, or time, but as much as I put in to you over my life, I can spare another moment for it. You'll never read this nor care that it existed, but it's my testament to myself that I am honest enough to admit you meant something at one time and that you mattered. Now I'm turning to my family and my girlfriend for the life I've started for myself. I'm happy where I am now, where I was never truly happy any time you were on my mind. Which is unfortunate for how long that was the case. On the same note, I am also thankful that I am able to put you out of my mind and no longer dwell on what hurt me unless I decide to think on it. The difference is choice. As it is my choice to recognize you in any way that isn't in complete disgust. A thanksgiving wish to you that you can be thankful for what you have and think of those that make that possible for you rather than only thinking of yourself. With as much love as I can muster toward someone such as you, I wish you health and happy holidays.

Got back a few days ago from an emergency surgery to remove my appendix. That was loads of fun. Out of work for about a week at least, and then on to taking it easy even at work for a while. Trying to get a little paperwork in so I don't go entirely unpaid, but I can barely sit up and focus my eyes. Not really slept since I can't lay the way I'm comfortable or anything, so I'm quite tired. My first surgery ever, and first big medical issue in general, so this is all new to me. Just thought I'd give an update if anyone cares to know.

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That'd be, technically, a Let's Play for Silent Hill 2. Watch if that interests you, or don't.  But I'll say that I am looking for a little bit of input that I've outlined in the uploader's commentary, before I start doing much more with the idea.